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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Graphic_Depictions_Of_Violence, Major_Character_Death, Rape/Non-Con,
      Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      Homestuck
  Relationship:
      Sollux_Captor/Karkat_Vantas, Gamzee_Makara/Karkat_Vantas
  Character:
      Sollux_Captor, Karkat_Vantas, Gamzee_Makara, Grand_Highblood
  Additional Tags:
      Alternate_timeline's_characters, Characters_development, other_tags_will
      be_mentioned_at_the_beggining_of_the_chapters
  Stats:
      Published: 2015-02-20 Updated: 2015-02-22 Chapters: 4/? Words: 12978
****** Nothing's gonna harm you. ******
by Karkat_Vantas
Summary
     It all seems to be a peaceful night but, they have the feeling it was
     going to be a long day.
Notes
     So, this is a pretty long ass roleplay i adapted as a history.
     Probably very ooc.
***** The beggining of our history. *****
 
                             Name: Karkat Vantas.
                                 Race: Troll:
                                 Age: 8 Sweeps
                    Blood Colour: Mutant bright candy red.
                               Planet: Alternia.
                            Current location: ????
                                        
Wait, we do know where that short crabby troll was. Of course, he’s in his best
 friend’s hive, sitting in his couch and leaning slightly onto him, if we want
  to be exact about that matter. The reason why they found themselves in such
position was because our knight has somehow convinced the mage to watch a rom-
com with him and this one agreed only because Karkat wasn’t feeling as good as
he could be feeling since he has a headache, and Sollux knew exactly how awful
  that sensation was and as a miracle of life, he decided to be a good troll
towards him for the first time in what seemed to be sweeps. It all seems to be
  a peaceful night but, they have the feeling it was going to be a long day.
                                        
                                        
                                        
 Sollux looked down at Karkat, he didn’t know why but he felt so comfortable,
nothing like with FF and AA ,who he knew he only wanted to stay as friends with
  them because he only liked Karkat, he has always felt that way for the tiny
 troll, but like anyone, he didn't want to ruin the friendship they had so he
hung out with them. He always actually wanted to be with kk just like this but
 he has never said or put anything into motion. So you can Imagine he was more
   than just happy to be with him like this, he wouldn't say it aloud but he
  thought that Karkat's purring was just the absolute cutest. He continued on
   petting him actually getting comfortable but not along himself to be the
awkward one and ruin everything with his buzzing so he holds it in. “well well,
  someone likes the warmth a lot but I do understand you “he chuckled softly.
  “Shut up! It's not my fault you're even warmer than the blithering killsight
hell's fire when I’m nothing more than just a shivering troll with the ass cold
as ice” Karkat grumbled as he brought his legs up, curling up like a grub would
  do, refusing letting go of captor while doing so. “And no. Fuck that  noise
  that I know that was happening in that nonexistent thinkpan of yours. I am
   definitely NOT purring okay???  It's just...my rage, yes the fucking rage
        inside of me that wants to get out so it rumbles in my chest.”
“Sure, because you have so much rage in you at the moment when right now I bet
 you're hiding your smile just like I am. And I think those two examples were
 the best damn examples I have ever heard. By the way if you actually did have
 that much rage in you then let it out. I mean if it does keep on building up
   then one day or another you'll probably end up rage quitting and probably
 destroy everything in sight. “He chuckled and pulled him in closer almost at
the edge of saying that the purring was very cute...but since kk didn’t like it
              he just decided to stay quiet and cuddled into him.
 Fuck, how could Sollux notice he was holding his smile back with all he had?
Sometimes he really hates how well he knows him but in the end, they’ve almost
known each other since they were grubs “And what if I don't want to let it out?
  What if I “do” want to flip the whole universe up in the angriest seething
 rampage in the history of the angry and seething rampages??? It's going to be
me, the universe and my flipped shit in a endlessly nonsensical comes and goes
   inexorable vicious circle of screams of rage that even horroterrors will
 dramatically stab their own eyes with the first fork they can reach in their
pathetic lifes. Have you thought about that captor? What if I don't want to be”
                              He smirked “tamed.”
 Sollux squinted his eyes at him. He knew very well Karkat was resembling that
  time he accidentally and totally unintentionally called himself an untamed
  beast, but even if the cancer one knew it was sarcasm, he still pretends he
   really meant it and bother him about it. “. . . You little shit. You know
 that’s copying me and by the way, sorry to break it two you honey but you can
 be tamed. By a lot of ways actually...and I wouldn't want you going bat shit
 crazy because then you might hurt yourself and I have to say it you mean too
 damn much to me that I would probably even risk my life to save your ass.” He
just couldn't believe that kk actually used “tame me” …that tiny fucking prick
  . He just shrugged it off and held him close now letting himself buzz while
               cuddling him even more into him and petting him”
 Wow. WOW. What?. Did he just call Karkat honey?? Oh god. Fuck.  He just called
 him like that! The Vantas could feel his blood pumper raising his beats even
more. Damn it, why does he have to feel like this? The most probably thing was
 that Sollux just said that to him sarcastically but he can't help the rom-com
 fanboy inside of him even though he wasn't too good at red flirting. Any kind
 of flirting to be honest ” Sollux  fucking Captor if you ever die to save my
ass  swear for the thing I appreciate the most” Sollux, obviously “i will kill
myself just to hunt you down in the dream bubbles and kill you twice for being
such an inconsiderate idiotic fuckface. Do you know how bad I’d feel if you do
                   that kind of sh- wait. Are you...buzzing?
 “No I’m purring. Why would I be buzzing? It’s not like I am related in any way
 to a bee and love honey or something stupid like that.“ He continued to buzz
 lovingly “And plus I swear I would do everything in my power to keep you from
fucking killing yourself because if anything I would want you to live for both
 of us I wouldn't bare for the two of us to be dead...that would be a sort of
 punishment, so don’t you ever go and do something as stupid as that. Besides,
 the last thing I want is to deal with your body. Truth was I think you’re the
one keeping me alive so yeah....all truth here you’re the reason I live or else
   I don’t think I would be alive if you weren't here “he smiled softly and
                  blushed lightly but makes sure to hide it.
 Karkat’s head was resting over the other’s chest, only an excuse to hear even
clearer and louder that purring/buzzing. Oh god, Karkat really loves it, it was
 the first time he ever heard him like this and even if he would never mention
 it to Sollux, it's so. fucking. cute.” Don't say shit like that... The truth
here was that “He hid his red face from him.” *I* couldn't live without you..i
  just could never handle it, i-i need your sloppy mutant ass here with me.”
  It was extremely unique letting himself act the way he’s acting, leaving his
 usual sarcasm and asshole-ness aside only to be replaced with words he really
meant, trying to say how he feels towards Karkat despite it was just too hard,
  although it seemed to be that he wasn’t the only one feeling that way. “Oh
c’mon kk. You really don’t need me as much as I need you...you know everything
that has happened to me and it really was terrible...all I am able to help you
 in was when you’re really stressed out I just know how to make you relax its
not much and we really don’t see each other all that much because you're always
busy or I’m always doing my codes....you know what I think we should spend more
 time together I mean I don’t think I’ve been this relaxed in a long time, it
                          actually feels really nice“
  “You actually do a lot more for me but I get your point and yeah, spend more
time with you doesn’t sound a bad torture… at least not that much.“ It wasn’t a
torture at all. It was actually far more than  a pleasure to have more of these
 times in his memory.  He swears he could just jump to the veil right fucking
 now if he was told to; he was so happy that he couldn't help the faint smile
 that showed on his face, yet he tried to not show it to Sollux by pulling up
  his turtleneck. God damn it. He didn’t know what he'd do without it.”There
wasn't really shit happening lately so I have a lot of free time to spend with
you. I mean, if that was what you want. Okay, now that was pretty stupid to say
 since you literally just said that.” He facepalmed while looking away, trying
 to calm down the blush on his cheeks “But I need you to do me a little favor.
Even though you're such a douchey nookscratching insipid horseshitting asshole
             will you, uh, promise me you will never leave me...?
 He looked over to him and blushed lightly once again but that doesn’t refrain
 him from getting closer to him and peck his cheek and try to look at him with
soft eyes, eyes that were screaming out his name. ” Karkat I promise to always
be by your side through rough times and good times. I have to say even if it’s
sappy as hell, you are my life and always will be...by now of course you should
   know I’m flushed for you… I have been for a long time but was scarred of
 rejection. But now I don’t care. All I know was that I want is to be with you
 He placed his hand on the cheek Sollux just kissed, totally shocked from the
 sudden and totally unexpected gesture and a lot less expecting to hear those
words from him; he could literally feel his heart skip one or two beats as his
 hands go cold. Swallowing down the lump in his throat he tries to speak. ”You
    really have luck I like sappy things, and yeah I know I suck showing my
  feelings to people but… I do feel red for you, I swear I don't even fucking
  know how you do it, it's like all shades of red, all of them for a cricking
blithering nooksniffer asshole like you but you know what?.....I'd like you to
 be “my” cricking blithering nooksniffer asshole...” Then, he gathered all his
   nonexistent courage and leaned to quickly peck the mustarblooded's lips.
   At that moment he swears that his heart had stopped for a second but when
 Karkat actually pecked his lips he wasn’t as pleased with it; he felt like he
 needed much more and it was everything or nothing.  So he pulling him in and
kissed him sweetly and lovingly. His lips actually did taste of light honey and
 he could also taste… candy on karkat’s lips. Such a sweet combination, isn’t
it? When he felt like both of them were about to run out of air he pulled away
and avoided looking at the other male”. . .You know I actually don’t regret the
 things I’ve done in this life but I certainly regret kissing you...”He could
          feel his face start to heat up as he blushed a bit darker.
 He widened his eyes when he was pulled into such a perfect kiss and he could
feel how special those lips were, how Sollux’s mouth fit perfectly against his
   own, like if they have been made to be together. God, he even freezed not
  knowing what to do like a total idiot but as soon as he regained control on
himself he closed his eyes while kissing back. That taste of light honey was a
    taste that he'd do anything to taste the rest of his life. Yet the " I
 certainly regret kissing you" thing was enough to made him freak the fuck out
in his mind. That wasn't a good sign. In rom coms that definitely “never” was a
 good sign. First kiss always meant everything in a relationship, like it was
 supposed to feel like it was just he and him, and that was certainly what he
felt but fuck, did Karkat kissed him so badly? Or did he realize he didn’t feel
 that way? He could just flip his shit but no, he did his best to stay calm or
 at least look like that as he asked “what?” He would have said more but that
                small crack on his voice made him stop talking.
 “I just felt like I was going a bit too fast.  I mean I didn't even ask if it
 was okay? don’t get me wrong I loved the kiss and I have to admit it you're a
 great kisser but I just don’t know I guess I feel like I got a little bit to
  needy and went in for it and I am sorry about that we are just starting off
    with this and I am sure as hell don’t want to rush it all and make you
 uncomfortable “ Sollux was just really nervous and shy about all of this and
felt like he rushed it but he did love the kiss so much. But what made him act
   like this was because he was too nervous and being nervous was one of the
  things Sollux couldn't handle, making him continuing to go on about how he
             sorry he was. Clearly someone needed to shut him up.
***** You just can't win in this game. *****
 He could easily notice how nervous was Sollux, and yes he was just as bad as
him but once he keep talking and talking and talking he rolled his eyes before
 grabbing the other's shirt and pulling him into a kiss once again to shut him
  the fuck up before wrapping his arms around his neck so that way the taller
   troll couldn't pull away. He didn't feel it wrong, he didn't feel it too
rushed; it was totally the opposite thing. If he looked over the past sweeps he
 could tell he'd waited, craved and dreamed of a moment like this for so long
 and that didn't compare at this. Reality was far beyond that, the feeling of
                   his lips over his own was just wonderful.
                                        
  Sollux was taken aback by this but melted into the kiss rather quickly. The
kiss was even more sweetly and lovingly than the last one at the point he could
 feel much more little butterflies in his stomach than before. He soon pulled
  Karkat in a bit closer to kiss him deeper. Obviously he was not one to rush
 things but for the kiss he felt like the happiest hacker troll. He basically
never wanted to let Karkat go. Nope. Letting the one he was flushed for go was
totally not an option he will even consider. He was sure as hell that the kiss
      will last a long time but, honestly? He was totally fine with that.
    Karkat felt literally like in heaven right now, his stomach was being a
   complete bitch right now, he almost felt sick, but sick in a good way. He
  didn't want to let go of him either, he knew it was going to be a kiss that
will last a long time until any of them needed to pull back to breath and so he
 shifted, placing himself on the other's lap to be as close as possible and to
kiss him  just as deeply as Sollux is going. He also didn't want to rush things
 but it felt so right and amazing, so he'd go with what the mustardblooded one
  was okay with. Hesitating a bit, he slowly traced his tongue over captor's
                                  lower lip.
Sollux felt as if he suddenly didn’t have control of himself anymore he felt as
if he needed more,  and before he could even knowledge it, he was gently, ever
 so gently, grabbing kk's tongue and nipping at it softly and at the same time
he pulls him in all the way close as possible. He even let out this small moan
because he was enjoying all of this way too much.  He pulls away slightly only
to get a short breath and goes back to kissing him, deeper than last time. His
mind was running wild, he couldn't help it, he was just so happy at the moment
he didn’t care what would happen at any time because as long as he was with kk,
                              he would be happy.
                                        
  Karkat tilted his head back in pleasure but barely a bit, making sure to not
pull back from the kiss at all since the way Sollux was playing with his tongue
has was indescriptible and shit, there it goes. A quiet sound of pleasure came
from his mouth as he slides his hand up to the other's head, brushing his hair
with his fingers. It wasn’t too long until he had to pull back only for a pair
 of seconds to breath before going back to kissing him but he was so lost into
  this  he didn't realize he accidentally grazed the base of one of Sollux's
                                    horns.
                                        
 The touch of his horn made him blush darkly and moaning, he had to pull away
for a couple seconds; he was not expecting the horn touching in any way and to
  say the truth. Don’t get him wrong.  He did like it but it was so sudden he
     just naturally reacted. He looked at Karkat and smiled softly at him,
   reassuring him that he didn’t fuck up or made him upset because he could
already hear Karkat freaking the fuck out because of that; while he was already
 off of him he took a moment to breathe as long as letting Karkat do the same
                        and leans to peck his forehead.
                                        
Panting a little, Karkat stared at Sollux in confusion when he pulled back but
  it was not a long time until he realized: the moan, the dark blush and his
hands on the taller troll's head made it pretty clear, making him blush deeper
as well”oh f-fuckfuckfuck, I’m so sorry I d...didn't mean to touch your horns.“
  Hell it was embarrassing as hell, troll's horns were *extremely* personal.
                                        
 Sollux was really okay I mean he does trust kk and if it was an accident then
  it was no problem. Looking down at him with a smile decorating his lips he
talked quietly”kk don't worry a-about it. I mean. It w-was an accident “ he was
  still a bit out of breath ”There’s really no harm done “he pecked his cheek
”Just please don't worry about it, I just reacted a bit too much to the touch”
                                        
He let go a soft sigh in relief before smiling as well, no longer caring if he
  looked like an idiot or not (although that’s the most probable thing right
 now). All of this was so nice and the last thing he wanted was to fuck it up.
 He then nodded slightly before leaning to rest his cheek against the others'
   chest affectingly and hugging him as well. Once he was starting to breath
   normally, he whispered.”Fuck you, your lips taste so good that’s utterly
                         unfair...did you know that?”
                                        
   “Well no I didn’t know I taste good but you do to you taste of sweets “He
chuckled and nuzzled his cheek, buzzing again and no longer panting, which was
  a good sign. He didn’t even mind that Karkat had touched his horns, he felt
such in peace right now at the point he didn’t mind telling him about that “oh
   my god I don't care if you even touched my horns I love you so much and I
                          really don’t give a fuck.”
                                        
 His own purring came back as well as his faint smile was now a wide one as he
knows Sollux won't be able to see it.” The hell? Do I really taste like sweets?
 Okay I would normally come with the most incoherent incompressible tirade you
ever heard about how weird that sounds but you kind of taste like honey too and
  even smell like it so you saved your ass this time. But the weirdest of all
this shit was that it's not like mind honey nor normal honey nor even the human
  kind of honey. Yours is...” He stayed silent for a while trying to find the
  words to explain it but only failing. ” I don't know I guess it was what it
             makes it special and to be honest, I really like it.”
                                        
 “Yeah but I don't even know maybe it can just be my lips and I’m just tasting
it while kissing you...” he smiled softly and pulled him in closer, stealing a
kiss” well I’m glad you like it and if you want to taste some more you know you
 always have me...by the way do you know what time it is? I think it might be
morning or something but who knows “He shrugged and yawned a little but almost
 immediately went back to putting his full attention oh Karkat, peppering his
                            face with small kisses.
                                        
Just when he thought he can't get any redder he can feel his cheeks heating up
 more and more at every single kiss Sollux gave him, he really enjoyed it, it
  looked like if he were living in one of his favorite movies yet he held the
 other's face fondly for a few seconds so he can see his the clock on the wall
   ,raising his eyebrows in a surprised manner.” Holy shitsquatting bleeding
fuck???, You gotta be kidding me! Was it already 3 pm o' clock???? For how long
  were we kissing each other? It's not like I’m complaining but... Damn. “ He
then placed his free hand over Sollux's, stroking it tenderly” Is it okay if I
 stay to sleep here tonight? It's been ages since we had a sleepover anyways.”
                                        
“Of course you can it’s not like I’m going to send you to your hive at three in
the morning. I’m not that kind of asshole.“ He got up gently and stretched his
arms and back” Well, where do you want to sleep? Like one where and two with or
 without me? “ Either way, he went and got ready then came back to hand Karkat
   the extra clothes that he leaves just in case. He was kind of hoping that
 Karkat will want to sleep with him but he wasn’t going to make him do what he
doesn’t want to do or anything, it was his choice. After that he got on top of
                     him, hugging him and buzzing happily.
                                        
   Karkat captchalogued the clothes and just as soon as Sollux hugged him he
wrapped his arms around him as well” You know I couldn't give less fucks about
 where we sleep as long as I am with my matesprit. “ He stole a kiss just like
      Sollux did before sliding away from him gently to quickly go to the
 ablutionblock and change his clothes. There was no way he was going to sleep
 wearing jeans in case the mustardblood wanted to sleep on the couch but if he
 didn't, then who cares? he loves using his clothes anyways. Once they were on
him he shivered slightly; the borrowed clothes are definitely *not* as warm as
  the ones he had and are kind of big for his tiny body but again, who cares?
  Going back to sollux, he places himself right where he was before, and once
          beneath him he hugs him tight as a manner to share warmth.
                                        
 “You're cold aren't you? “ He chuckled and hugged him, going to his chest and
  just breathing out as a trick to get karkat warmer faster ” I think just by
  hugging you I don't want to get up anymore...do you mind if we sleep on the
couch? Its only if you want to. I want you to be comfortable and all so in the
end it’s your choice “he smiled and pulled Karkat in closer to warm him up even
                                     more.
                                        
  It was just a matter of a few minutes until he stopped shivering and started
  purring just quietly once again, smiling and playing with the other's hair,
 rolling and unrolling it again and again affectionately as he interwined his
  legs with Sollux's own. “Yeah, this is nice. Especially with your extremely
  warm body... lucky asshole. “ He caressed his back more than just happy he
 didn't even want to flip his shit right now, and even if he did he could not
  to” God damn it captor I really hate how you fuck up with my thinkpan every
 single second I am around you, do you even realize how hard to me is to keep
   acting like the usual pain in the ass I normally am with you??? I just, I
can't! You're too cute and too stupidly lovely that the only thing I want to do
     was punch you on the mouth over and over and over with my own fucking
                     mouth..softly...because I love you.”
                                        
 “You know you don't have to hold back to do the last part” He chuckled while
smirking “But anyway you make me feel the same so we're both even and I am not
cute I am everything but cute. You're the cute one here I mean haven't you seen
yourself in the mirror and haven't you heard yourself purr? I am like 10% sure
that you are the cuter one I mean it’s just a fact that you're going to have to
 face not matter how much you don't like it...and with me you can act whatever
way you want I will seriously always love you no matter how you are “ He kissed
   him softly and then pulled back to peck his cheek ”And I love you too kk,
                         always have and always will.”
                                        
His ears went down and kissed him back but after hear all those kind of things
he couldn't do anything but hide his face on his neck and tug at his shirt just
a little while squeaking quietly.” Y”-you limp fronded stooge shitsponge where
  in alternia , derse and prospit did you learn to be so romantic??? “ Acting
like Sollux was acting was Karkat's weakness, even though it's kind of sappy it
 was perfect at his point of view. He was already feeling red as hell for him
and this wasn't helping. At. All. “But no, you're wrong, you're far cuter than
 I am because I am totally “not” cute and that's it. End of story. Happy ever
                                fucking after.”
                                        
 “Well it’s not a happy after for everyone because your story was a fake and a
 total lie. Everyone knows you're the cuter one and if I really need to I will
  make everyone agree and if you can't accept it then that’s too bad for you.
  Also we all know that I do love you more then you love me and don't try to
argue with that one because I will tell the whole world and it would be easy I
  can do it right now and I will show you “ He whispered against his ear  “ I
 love you kk” He pulled back to look into the other male’s eyes “And that was
 how you tell the whole world because kk you are my whole world so give it up
                         you can't win in this game.”
 The mutantblooded one blushed and opened his mouth trying to find the words,
 trying to say something, but oh god. Oh. My. Fucking. God. Sollux Captor just
  left Karkat Vantas speechless and he couldn't help but lean up and kiss him
deeply. Though after a while he pulled back, looking into his eyes.” For all I
   care you can say all the bullshit you want but that will definitely *not*
change anything, you just cannot change my feelings and how ridiculously red I
  am for you “ he said while cupping  the taller troll's face ” I’m literally
 feel as flushed for you and as red as my blood color is and not even the the
 vomitinducing pustule excuse of the nonexistent Gamzee’s messiahs  could make
 me change my mind, even though if they kill me and make me wear some kind of
ring of life I doubt that exists only to make come alive again just to kill me
over and over and over and fucking over again. Why don't you get a look at the
big picture Sollux, I love you more than you love me and I love you combined so
  therefore I'd love you more than when I loved you more than you love me and
love you and so on and on. It's a goddamned endlessly paradox that explains how
 much I “do” actually love you so please shut your windhole up and use it for
  something useful for once and just kiss me, you  little piece of stinkiest
            walkingshit… my little piece of stinkiest walkingshit.”
                                        
  Sollux was totally not ready to give up, he really did love Karkat a whole
 bunch! But he didn’t think he would ever convince Karkat that he did love him
 more with words or anything at that moment. He was basically almost about to
 beg him to believe him but just dropped it and looked at him with an innocent
face with some pouting in it obviously, he wanted Karkat to admit that he loved
  him more. So the gemini got the idea to sound like a crying cute meowbeast
   because shit, no one can resist the meowbeast” but Karkat~ “ He even went
   through it all and called him by his full name this was now actually some
strong shit this was not easy to get out of almost impossible but don't get him
wrong he did want to kiss him and all. He had forgotten that it was like three
     in the morning and that Karkat needed to sleep. Hah. Good job Sollux.
                                        
  He crossed his arms and looked away.” No no. Don't look at me like that. Do
*not* look at me like that, there is no way I’m going to- “then he heard Sollux
 calling him in such a cute way and looked at him, ohfuck ohfuck ohfuck he was
 looking so cute like that. What did you do Karkat?????, what. The. Hell. Did.
 You. Do.” I-i ..*fuck. you.* for me looking at you! Alright. Whatever. *fine*
 ”then he wrapped his arms around the other's torso, pulling him to lie down,
 cuddling.” We both love each other in the same way, no more, no less. That's
 it. That was *all* I’m going to give in. Take it or leave it. “He was used to
 not sleep almost anything at all but he didn't want to Sollux to be tired and
restless because of him” Now just close your eyes and have some rest so you're
  not bitching around tomorrow. “He then leaned to give him a sweet goodnight
                                     kiss.
                                        
Oh heeeell yeeah! That’s how you fucking convince someone but…he doesn’t think
Karkat knew that he wasn’t planning on sleeping so he just kind of mumbles it”
  uh....kk...I don't actually want to  sleep...” He was happy that they could
  love each other the same but he knew that he loves Karkat more than Karkat
  loves him so he didn’t argue any more about that. Instead, he played around
with his own hand” But if you're sleepy don't mind me. I’ll be right here next
 to you if you need something. “ He smiled and looked at him, hoping he won’t
make him sleep. Sure he hates sleeping and eating but he thinks that it’s okay.
  I mean at least he wasn’t fainting or something. Nevertheless, the look in
Karkat’s face is telling him that he shouldn’t have said that. Here he goes...
***** Dreams can become true, but remember that nightmares are also dreams.
*****
Chapter Notes
     #TW: Description of gore. Blood.
   What??????? No fuck that miserable nonsensical noise, you *have* to sleep
Sollux. “ The cute smile the other was giving him didn't stop him from feeling
 extremely worried about him. He sighed and stroked the other's cheek gently.”
   look.. I know you have those horrible nightmares but it's okay. I got you
    alright? I won't let anything bad happen to you and that goes for this
 situation and any other that could happen in the future. I've told you I care
 about the shit out of you and I don't want you to go fucking around like the
  most dead zombie the universe have ever had the unpleasure to meet and then
just pass out in front of me and get sick because I will have *no* idea what to
 do and I just won’t handle it, alright?...I know I never told you about this
but I also have bad dreams...nightmares that makes me want to pull every single
  fiber of my hair off, nightmares that literally tears me off in less than a
second but I just go on and try to ignore them you know? So that I can have the
                        minimum energy to be with you.
                                        
   “No kk you just don't get it. Mine are really bad, like all of the trolls
combined.It’s just really bad it’s just *really* bad...for me sometimes I wake
   up and go straight to the sink and puke or sometimes I wake up crying and
screaming and I can't stop until hours later....the most embarrassing ones are
of me wetting the fucking bed at times I even start to scratch myself and start
  to bleed....sometimes the dreams become so real that I wake up with random
scratches no one really understands me and it’s just- I can't I can't deal with
  it....call me what you will, weak or anything I don’t care but please don't
 make me sleep. I just don't think I can and will “ He looks away, embarrassed
        and kind of scared of remembering of all the heavy nightmares.
                                        
 He furrowed his eyebrows, worried as fuck for him and just held him close. He
 stayed silent for a while, thinking about what to do :  he didn't want Sollux
  to live those horrible things but he didn't want him to get sick because of
it.” Fuck...isn’t there something I can do for you? There *must* be something I
just... I can't. I can't stay arm crossed knowing all the kind of shit you have
   to go through, it's not like you actually did something terrible like to
 deserve this.. Seriously I'd give all I have even my own pathetic meaningless
life to change places with you if I could.And no, I could *never* call you weak
 nor anything like that. Especially because of these kind of things. I know I
 can be such a incoherent shittingdouche screaming fuck asshole sometimes but
                             I’m not “that” bad.”
                                        
  “Kk you really can't do anything....and I wouldn't let you trade places with
 me not now not ever I would rather live worst just to be with you just please
 don’t make me try to sleep...that would be the worst thing you can ever do to
me...”he looks at him and smiles softly” don’t worry so much about me I rather
you get some sleep. I’ll be right here for you, just sleep for both of us. And
 plus I don't know what I would do if you had the nightmares. I’m already used
 to not sleeping and all but I Imagine that it would be a lot worse if you had
                                    them.”
  He wasn't entirely convinced yet Sollux looked like he was and maybe it'd be
the best, or at least for now. Of course he was going to search and find a way
to make those nightmares disappear or at least slow them down a little, and he
will give anything to make that happen, no matter what the mustard blooded say.
  He took a deep breath and ,hesitantly, nodded.” Alright... But no. Fuck no.
There is no way I am going to sleep calmly when you have to be awake like that.
It's incredible stupid as it didn’t have the minimum sense at all. It's unfair
 as hell for you and this wasn't a question. No matter what face or sound you
 make, I’m staying awake with you. Not like I’m also used to sleep that much.”
                                        
He got on top of him and sighed ”kk just please fucking sleep I won't be bored
 or anything I promise you that just I want you to sleep. It’s better to have
 your matesprit taking care of you. Please, just do me this favor. It will be
  for your good as well just sleep kk, sleep for me “He was seriously almost
           begging him...well more like he was begging him to sleep.
                                        
 He let out a heavy sigh and curled up on his side. He tried to look at Sollux
but then gave up and proceeded to rest his forehead on his arm, looking away as
 well and by away I mean the couch.” Oh can you just shut up? the only reason
 why I am not sleeping was because of you, otherwise I wouldn't give a single
fuck about if I sleep or not. Maybe you're right. Maybe I’m such an ungrateful
piece of shit but here's the news: that was exactly why I don't want to sleep,
  you can call me however your poor little thinkpan may think of but here I’m
trying to be a little more equal between us but you know what, whatever. If you
really have a lot of codes to do then just go. The last thing I want to be was
                           a waste of time for you.”
                                        
Welp, it looks like he fucked up...like always ”Look love, I’m just saying that
 you need to rest. I don't want you to pass out or get sick that’s all really
and fine after I say these last things I will shut up...but you have never been
 a waste of time you never will be its not possible “ he sighed and went for a
 small sketch/diary book to open it in the last page he was on and started to
 sketch, pretty sad about what he had done to Karkat; he just wanted him to be
able to sleep and have energy tomorrow so they could do a lot of amazing things
                like bake or something. He mumbled “sorry kk..”
                                        
 He stayed silent for a while yet he wasn't too sure what Sollux mumbled as he
couldn't really hear him. He takes a deep breath “You know what? “Maybe Sollux
  did really need to do another things and the only shit Karkat was doing was
 holding him back, in the end, Sollux would never admit that. “ *fine* if you
really want me to go to sleep then I’ll just go to sleep” So that way he could
  do whatever the fuck he needed to do. Karkat didn’t really shift he simply
 closed his eyes and whispered ” I love you...” Nevertheless, that wouldn't be
 what he would have done if the little piece of shit  he was dared to see how
    sad Sollux looked, he'd have stand up and hug him or something but fuck
                                   Karkat.”
                                        
“I love you too“ Sollux didn’t really have something else to do. So first thing
 first, he gave Karkat a kiss then went back to the sketch book that contained
all of his horrible nightmares. The dream he was drawing had way to much blood.
As always Sollux was the victim trying to run away, he had ran into a room and
    there he found Kanaya hanged he of course tried to help her by putting
 something underneath but when he found something it was covered in blood and
  guts. Sollux grabbed it and went back to her but it was too late....he ran
  toward another way to look for the exit but just saw a faraway short figure
that was stabbing out Eridan’s eyes out and, stabbing his neck then his bottom
half the figure cuts the guts and laughs. Sollux couldn't do anything but run.
 Then others were turning crazy, that Nepeta had killed Equius but Terezi had
 killed Nepeta. Then the shorter figure came into play and with his powers he
  dragged Terezi over the wood, making her bleed and die. Although, there was
 another battle going on: it was Tavros vs. Gamzee. Of course, it didn’t last
   long but Gamzee had won by putting a knife through Tavros’ neck and then
 pulling it off but all of that resulted in the short one getting a hammer and
  hitting Gamzee who died almost inmediately. Sollux ran to another room and
there he hid but only to see that the short one had captured Aradia and Feferi
 and began with AA , ripping her tongue out then stabbing her eyes out just to
 start randomly stabbing . After that, he was doing the same to FF . He didn’t
 have a way to run out so he was trapped and as soon as the figure saw him, it
 smiled at him and went closer but that’s how it all ended. Sollux never drew
         details on the short one but as you can guess it was Karkat.
                                        
The short one smiled at the kiss before curling up properly, just like grubs do
as he can feel himself getting colder, yet he didn’t mention anything about it.
  It wasn't too long until he finally falls into a heavy sleep but he didn’t
   snore, it sounded more like a quiet purring and. Most of the time, it was
 always difficult for him to sleep but right now he felt protected, all thanks
to Sollux although he would have preferred to cuddle him. His dreams or should
 we say, nightmares were basically the life of the sufferer. These were kindly
 provided by his mutant condition,  but the most fucked up of all was that he
 didn’t dream about the peaceful and good part of his ancestor's life. No, he
 always dreamed about the days he was in jail, about the execution, about the
grand highblood's visits, about how every single one of his friends were ripped
away from him, yet he didn’t dream about the disciple, or if he did, the dream
 was never focused on her. The  focus was on the psiioniic and just seeing him
  screaming and crying for him when the e%ecuter aims the bow towards him was
  enough to make him cry as he sleeps. Not to mention when he somehow dreams
about the mustardblooded's death in the Imperious condescension's ship and the
 worst of all was that maybe for Karkat are just useless dreams but they feel
                                 way too real.
                                        
Sollux looked over at Karkat as he colored the pictures he couldn't really take
  seeing the pictures that he had to take a breath, he got up, kissed Karkat
gently and then went outside. He left the sketchbook open but he didn’t really
 think Karkat would see it . Once outside he takes deep breaths, enjoying the
fresh air as he stands always under the shadows but it isn’t too long until he
has to go back in. He got his husktop and began to code, yet he stayed close to
                Karkat just in case he was having a bad dream.
                                        
Indeed he was. But there was something different this time. It was not the same
 nightmare than he usually has, and maybe that just scares him even more since
 this time he doesn’t know what will happen to him. He dreams that he's in the
 ablution block with his usual clothes and sitting on the tub. He notices the
 tub's faucet dripping some weird fluid and he gets closer to try0 to see what
was it but finds out that it's nothing more than the brightest candy red blood,
the same one running through his veins and that’s when he freaks out. He tried
 to back away but before he knew it, the whole room was filled with his blood,
 drowning him in it. He tries to swim out of it, towards the ceiling to breath
but it just keeps coming out of nowhere and the roof looks like if it’s getting
even away and away from him as he swims closer and closer and closer to it. He
  can feel the anxiousness, the fear and the lack of air in his lungs and no
matter what nor how much he struggles, he just keeps drowning and drowning in a
                               sea of red fear.
                                        
  Sollux of course had no idea of what's happening but all of a sudden he got
this urge to go to Karkat and be with him and who is him to ignore it? Standing
 up, he went to sit down next to him he gently places his matesprit so that he
  was sitting up and leaning on him.Of course he makes sure that he was still
sleeping and surprise surprise, he was. So calmly, the taller one continued on
 with his code while petting him lightly and this was all just himself acting.
He started to hum a little song so that if he did actually see Karkat waking up
he might want to go to sleep again. He still didn’t even notice that his sketch
                          book was wide open to see.
                                        
   By that time, he had already some tears peeking in his eyes yet it wasn't
noticeable since they were ,obviously,  closed, but what it was noticeable was
how bad he was shaking. His sleeping form decided to cling onto him and somehow
he hears him humming in his dream. The blood had already flooded the whole room
but surprisingly, it was starting to slowly descend around him and letting him
   reach to the surface of it and gasp loudly just as soon as he was able to
 breathe once again and that was when he wakes up. However when he opened his
eyes, the contained tears started dripping down his cheeks quickly as he looks
around, noticing the book but due his blurry vision he couldn’t quite see what
 was on it.  As soon as he knowledges the gemini’s presence he hugs him tight
                  and close, not daring to say a single word.
                                        
  He was surprised but didn't hold back. He put his husktop on the ground and
pulls Karkat onto his lap, hugging tightly. He continued to hum, not wanting to
  ask what had happened he rocks him back and forth to calm him down, feeling
  absolutely terrible for making him sleep but he was a little happy that he
looked a bit better. He continued the humming a bit louder this time as well as
   petting him but of course he knew that this was very calm compared to the
dreams he had but since it was Karkat, he didn't care. He wanted him to be okay
 and have that small little smile on his face and be calling him an asshole as
                                he always does.
                                        
  He took a shaky breath before pulling back just a little, enough to quickly
wipe his tears away with his sleeves and come back to hug him. He'd hate it if
Sollux would actually see his tears but fuck it. He closed his eyes not wanting
to go to sleep again but let himself relax. Eventually he stops being so tense
 and so stops shivering. He then leaned up to kiss those honey-alike lips and
 whispers “Thank you honey.” This was one of those times Karkat didn’t exactly
 act like himself, or better said, he acts like the vulnerable version of him,
 the part that was behind the kind of rough good-for-nothing-but-cursing-and-
                         flipping-his-shit appearance.
                                        
He enjoyed the but left him wanting a bit more so he kissed karkat’s cheek and
pulled him in close into another hug, still cradling him just for the safety of
it “Oh my god kk. I’m sorry I made you sleep and it’s no problem what so ever.
 I want you to be safe “ He honestly did and would do whatever in the world to
  make him forget about the nightmares and make them stop, saving him. Karkat
didn’t deserve them, no,  not one bit . Sure he was a little grouchy but he did
                      care for everyone in a special way.
                                        
  He pulled back just one hand and slided it down Sollux’s arm, caressing it
   fondly before holding his hand “No, it's ok Sollux really... It was just
  another stupid nonsensical figment of my imagination. Who gives a shit? The
  most probable thing was that I won't even remember it in a few days so just
 stop worrying about this.“ He knew he will never forget it but that was a way
        to fool himself too. He rested the side of his head against the
mustardblooded's neck and so he could gaze the book at his reach once again. He
had to say he was far more than just curious about it so he just takes it, not
really thinking if Sollux would get mad because of that or not. In the end, all
                  he was looking for was to distract himself.
                                        
Before Karkat had gotten the book he kissed his forehead and held his hand ” I
worry about you but if you say you'll forget about it then I don’t want you to
  remember “ When he saw that he was looking the book he freaked out. Was he
                      going to fuck everything up again?
***** The sides I've never shown. *****
Chapter Notes
     #TW: Mentions of suicide.
 Sollux snatches it out of his hand and looked at him. It was supposed to be a
 secret but thinking about everything twice, he looked down at him ”.....sorry
   it was just a reflex ....there was some pretty deep stuff in there...” He
  handed it out to him and looked away not really sure about all of this. The
 drawings were good but really scary there was a shit ton of blood and it all
ended with Karkat being the killer. He was scared of it but knew that he would
 do him no harm so was pretty glad about that because it gave him more hope to
 sleep but not that much, he’d rather be matesprit with Karkat and not sleep.
                         That was just his way to go.
  He flinched a bit when the book was snatched out from his hands thinking he
 fucked it up again yet when Sollux gives it to him he feels pretty relieved.
 Nodding and giving him a "I don't care, it's okay" look he took the book and
 opened it up, starting in the first page. “Holy fuck, who would say you were
such a good artist? ” Wait,  was that blood? God, yes it was fucking blood. No
Karkat, do not panic, these are just drawings, nothing more, it’s not time for
your hematophobia to kick in. He took a deep breath before keep looking at the
drawings and with a non-i ntended shaky voice he asks “Sollux... Was this some
  kind of dream diary? do you really dream about this shi- Oh sweet almighty
         taintchafing fuck! Was that me stabbing Aradia eyes out???!”
 He nodded at both of them “Yes this was a dream book and all of the drawings
are my dreams...and yeah thanks but I don't think I draw that good... But yeah
I don't know why but you always seem to be the villain...which was really weird
and sometimes you do end up killing me and sometimes I wake up before anything
 happens and the worst was you actually torturing as you will see in the next
  page or two you actually do end up ripping my horn off....but yeah this was
 where I draw all of my nightmares, it helps me calm down about them so please
don't think its girly or a diary “ He did look a little embarrassed but not as
 much and he was observing  as Karkat flips the pages and all but at times he
                          just looks out the window.
                                        
 “What in the disemboweling inexorable puddle of shit inside of my past self's
 excuse of thinkpan are you talking about???? If you didn't notice it this was
  serious shit, how could I even call you girly because o-” He stopped as he
 looks the page Sollux was talking about and bites his own lip, god, this was
 way too much, he tried to keep flipping the pages but he just couldn’t handle
it anymore and he had to close the book and leave it aside before proceeding to
 embrace Sollux tight” okay listen... I’m sorry you dream about these kinds of
  things but “pulls back to hold his cheeks, looking into his eyes.” I would
  never and by "never" I mean *never* do those kind of things to you. Just by
  thinking about it makes my whole insipid bowels twitch and just hit my head
 onto thenearest wall in this precise room until I bleed to death because that
  was how things are. No matter what you say I’d die for you, I’d die to stop
something bad happen to you and even if someday I just decide to snap the fuck
        out of me I’d kill myself before I could even touch you, okay?”
                                        
 He didn’t know why but hearing Karkat say anything about dying was enough to
make him start to tear up and cry, probably because he was too sensitive about
 that particular topic. He then hugged the other male, needing him closer than
 other times as he cries out ”Please kk, please never say that you would kill
 yourself...i know t-that you wouldn’t do any of t-this to me so please don't
worry “ In all honesty, he thinks that Karkat was making everything a bit worse
  than it needs to be but he didn't really care much” I just please don't do
anything to yourself I don't know what I would do without you. I just really n-
need you in my life; you mean everything to me and i-if you actually were going
to do any of this I’m glad that it would be you doing it I don't care what you
        do to me. “ He wiped the tears away” I will always love you..”
                                        
  His ears instantly pointed. Seeing Sollux like this just teared his little
  heart in pieces of pieces. He hugged back without hesitation, stroking the
other's back in a soothing manner.”Fuck Sollux, please don't cry... I-I didn't
mean to say anything to make you feel worse, I’m sorry, I’m really  sorry. “ He
 could feel his own eyes getting watery ” God damn it. I always fuck things up
but please stop that.. “ He kissed his cheek before continuing. ”The last thing
I want you to be is this. I want to see you okay. I need to hear your awful “it
 was really totally the opposite” sarcastic giggling and calling me names and
have the most embarrassing conversations the galaxy have ever heard of together
 and just- just  love you. “ He balanced him from side to side, gently rocking
 him ” Please just be okay.. “ Yet he didn't say he wouldn't kill himself for
him because he really would but he didn't want to make Sollux feel even worse.
                                        
“Fuck I’m really sorry kk, I’m overreacting.... “ He got up and stopped hugging
him even though he was dying to keep him close” I just need to take a breath “
  He opened the door and steps out, not giving a single fuck that he’s still
 shirtless. He didn't want to seem weak in front of Karkat but he already kind
of did but he should at least stay strong a little. He took deep shaky breaths
    and wiped away his tears as he wandered around, walking back and forth.
  Whispering to himself loud enough that Karkat could even hear him” Fuck...i
have to be stronger...what the hell was wrong with me...? Okay Sollux just calm
                                the fuck down.”
                                        
 His expression showed how worried he was for Sollux and before he knew it, he
   was already outside, uncaptchaloguing a blanket. He wrapped it around the
other's back and then hugged him from behind, covering the front of him with it
as well.” Ishould be asking you what in the frothing heinous undulating hell is
    wrong with you??? Okay yeah I get it, your warm as fuck and you have an
 incredible and almost unbelievable coming from you tone chest despite you're
skinny but this is ridiculously stupid. The only thing you'll get like this is
  getting sick you blithering insensate thinkpanless shitsponge. “ He sighs ”
 There's nothing wrong with you and seriously you don't have to act strong in
  front of me.. Nor do things alone, that is why I’m your matesprit, I worry
      about you and you know I will do anything to make you feel better.”
                                        
 He sighed as well and looked away “You know what? Everything is wrong with me
  and I do need to be strong. You just wouldn't get it, no one ever does and
honestly I never get sick. But it’s too cold for you to go outside “ He turned
  around and grabbed the blanket to wrap it around Karkat” If you can't take
this, let me tell you this was only the beginning of you seeing all of me so if
  you really can't take this then you don't have to be my m-matesprit....” He
really didn't want it to end up Karkat leaving him but he wasn't going to make
 him stay and make him hold onto all of his problems.  Sollux thought that he
was a messed that he was a freak and he didn't want him to have to live and put
       up with this...i mean he had hid some of his actual feelings and
characteristics from everyone else and obviously this was one of them. The good
  thing about this was that Sollux had stopped crying and was now looking at
      Karkat straight on and he had pain in his eyes but yet seriousness.
                                        
    “What?!?? No. fuck  that  noise in the deepest seething asshole of the
 existence not once, not twice but fifty fucking times! I love you okay? Like
   really really love you and that includes the whole packet. I know we just
  started being matesprits but I don't care what secrets nor other messed up
things you may have, there is nothing that can stop me from loving you, even if
we b-break up I will still love you, even when you act like a pain in the ass I
will still love you, even if we fight I will still love you, even when we're on
  the dream bubbles I’ll still love you, even when this universe explodes in
zillions little pieces of unilateral shit I . Will. Still. Love. You.” But.. “
He looked away” If you want to break up with me , it's okay.. I understand it.
                                        
    “No I really do want to be with you and all but I don't want you to be
  uncomfortable. I mean I will get worse than I already am and you're already
 saying of what's wrong with me...I just ugh I don't know, I’m worried I guess
 but you know you agreed that we love each other the same amount so don't you
  dare start with that shit that you love me a lot and all ...” All in all he
really did love him but he didn't want to be annoying with this and he did feel
kind of bad when Karkat had ask what was wrong with him . It just made him feel
worse about himself . But he kissed him lightly ” I really want to be with you
 for as long as possible, for as long as you want to be together just I don't
    want you to feel uncomfortable with all the sides I’ve never shown...”
He still blushed like hell when they kiss yet he sighed when Sollux pulls back”
I never felt uncomfortable with you, it's totally the opposite thing. And yeah
I asked you what the hell was wrong with you but just because you went outside
 shirtless and , like I already said, I worry about you and I didn't know you
can actually be thatwarm and I never said I love you more I just said how long
I’ll love you, those are different things and no, you won't make me feel weird
 or something, I know it can be hard to let me see the things you always hide
 from everyone and I appreciate that but I want to help you alright? So don't
 you dare to be bullshitting me and hiding other things just because you think
               i'll leave you because of that because I won't.”
   “Karkat please. It’s just- I’m really difficult and different as you can
 already see that...i just I’m just not open and its really don't like talking
 about what I've been through and I just can't. I’m sorry. I really am fucking
  messed up and I don't feel like ugh! I think you're too good for me and I’m
 just confused “ His psionics randomly sparked up and when they did he took a
 step back from the cancer one,  just in case they hit Karkat or something. He
                            needed him to be safe.
                                        
 He stared at him for a while yet never looking into his eyes. He was kind of
trying to understand what he just said to him. That didn't sound too well... It
 looked more like what people says when they're about to kick his lover's ass
 right out from his life so they can be with "better" people than them. Karkat
   crossed his arms and looks at his feet, his voice sounded nothing like it
normally does; it was trembling and insecure and kind of shy really, like if he
 was trying to not cry or something ”Sollux are you sure you're not trying to
         break up with me...? Because it really sounds like that....”
                                        
He looked up at him surprised and blinks a couple times, his psionics not dying
 down”No of course not! That- I would prefer to die than to break up with you.
 All my life I dreame- well I didn't dream of it because my dreams are pretty
fucked up but I daydreamed of being with you I mean seriously I really do love
 you...I’m sorry about all of this I think we should just go inside before you
 could freeze like a popsicle out here in this cold “ He actually just picked
Karkat up and walked inside to sit him down on the couch and kiss him lovingly
               and sweetly almost two times better than before.
                                        
He felt his heart stop for a few seconds as he waited for a response felt but a
   big relief when Sollux denied it and let go a quiet squeak when the other
suddenly picked him up but wrapped his arms around his neck resting his head on
 his chest. When was already settled on the couch he was surprised with those
 honey lips once again and couldn't help but kiss back and purring a little as
 well. Stroking the other's hair he had to pull back to say a couple of things
to him.” There's no shit to be sorry about and if you don't want to talk about
 those things you hide, okay. I’m totally fine with that. Even though I'd like
 to help you to go through of that I don't want to get into your life and nose
              around in your life and be another problem to you.”
                                        
Sollux could only think of one thing and that was. Dammit. Why? Because Karkat
 had broken the kiss and he was actually enjoying it a lot he had a blush. He
      just nodded at Karkat and let go of him he stood and smiles softly
 ”Yeah...thanks kk but yeah I feel like I can't tell you everything...not just
yet at least...and if you don't mind I’m just going to go take a shower so then
afterwards we can go to your hive and if you want you can change and everything
 “ He pecked his cheek before getting his clothes to get in the shower. While
cleaning himself he leaned against the wall, trying to get his psionics to act
           normal and when they finally do, he continues to shower.
                                        
  And so before he knew Sollux was gone. He cursed in low voice at himself. he
 wanted to kiss him once again. Why didn’t he just stopped talkin augh! He let
 himself fall on the couch face-first. He should have never break the kiss and
just the way Sollux's cheeks were yellowish was so cute. Okay calm down Karkat,
 don't flip your shit. Inhale. Exhale. Inhale.exhaldfjfgkljrg There will gonna
be another oportunities, right? He thought as he lets himself plop down on the
 couch once again. Sollux was right, it was kind of too cold outside even for
 him and that’s when he noticed what seemed to be sollux’s jacket lying on the
coffe table… well, he needed warm and it would smell like him so… he looked to
both of his sides as he takes off his sweater (that was already kind of old and
   it wasn’t as warm as it used to be) and put over his shirt his mateprit’s
  jacket. Smelling it he kind of hugs himself because of how comfy it was. He
                 could be such a dork when no one is looking.
                                        
 He finished taking the shower and put on his clothes but this time his shirt
 was a bit different since it was stripped with black and yellow. He went back
to karkat with his hair still dripping a little and not at its normal state, it
was all kind of messed up but cute in a way. ”hey kk “ He smiled at him softly
as his original smell was even stronger ” I’m ready to go to your hive whenever
    you are. “ he noticed that the shorter troll was wearing his jacket and
   smirking, he pecked his cheek ”But  let me just say you look good with my
 jacket on. “ He chuckled and picked up his husktop , putting it away so they
                            wouldn't knock it over.
                                        
“Took you long enough.” Nevertheless when he turned his head to look at him his
 arms dropped to the side. Holy shit, he looked so… So hot with the hair like
  that, or which is to say, hotter than usual and when he got closer he could
 smell that scent so clearly and fuck.He looked away, trying to act normal and
not stare at him like an idiot.”Uh, yeah, thanks...“ but of course, he fails at
  it. Terribly. ” I think we should go before the sun comes out. “ He cleared
 throat. Dammit, stop stuttering like that, you look stupid! ” I really would
prefer to still have my eyesight for when we get in my hive and it's like 5 am
 already.So y-yeah... “ Oh HELL NO, you didn't just stutter again. Facepalming
            in frustration, he stood up, avoiding the other’s gaze.
                                        
 He didn’t really know what he did wrong so he just shrugged and took his hand
in his, walking towards the door, kind of dragging him behind really. He opened
the door and headed outside feeling kind of but got used to it and calmed down.
   ”Yeah I know. “ He smiled softly and didn’t even care that his hair was a
  little down. Yet, he didn’t know what to talk about or do so he just hums a
                                    little.
                                        
Of course he was feeling more than just nervous and he almost tripped over when
 Sollux dragged him out but then intertwined his fingers with his, looking at
him just by the corner of his eyes. Okay Karkat, think. This was getting pretty
awkward. What do relationships need? Communication, yes that is what they need.
He needed to find something to talk about but he thinks that saying how hot was
  looking Sollux was kind of weird and just whispered.” (you look pretty cute
like that... like really r-really fucking cute.......)” He facepalmed with his
   free hand again. Oh my motherfucking god, was he going to stop stuttering
     someday? At least for 5 seconds. That would be *really* appreciated.
                                        
 He blushed slightly and looked over to him as he chuckles.  ” Dude, that was
seriously adorable of you to say and really you shouldn't be hitting yourself “
He kissed his forehead ”There. All better. But anyway, what’s going to happen?
Are we going to your hive and you're going to change clothes and then what? Are
we going to stay at your hive or a walk or what? “ He was a pretty curious bee.
  Plus he wanted to start off a conversation while they were walking. “Oh and
thanks for calling me cute...but I’m really just same old same old “ He blushed
                                 a bit darker.
   Oh c’mon Sollux! Don’t you dare to act like if it’s your first time being
 cute.“ He blushed a little more and clears his throat before speaking, still
 not daring to look at him.” And well, if you think about it we kind of never
 had our first "date" as matesprits and I know it's kind of lame but I have a
movie we can watch. Kanaya borrowed me it the other day so I’m not sure what it
 was about but she said I will  like it. I guess we can watch it together and
                then eat something. If you're okay with that.”
                                        
 “Yeah that sounds amazing but I remind you I don't eat as much but I will  if
that'll make you happy and if I could know the name of the movie that would be
  great...and if it’s a Rom-com I swear I will try to tolerate it.“ He looked
over to him and smiled but since  he didn’t look back he just squeezed his hand
to see what Karkat would do back. Other than that he still didn't know what to
say. At least his hair was drying up but was still down “ And thanks for saying
  that I’ve always been cute...but for me I think you’ve always been hot and
                               adorable ehehe.”
                                        
His whole face was red and hell he just didn’t know how to react to these kind
of situations so he just kind of hit his arms with the side of his own, gently
shoving him aside. ”Oh fuck you. We both know you're hotter and cuter and much
   more adorable than me. "period" “ He imitated his voice playfully before
 leaning and pecking his cheek.” And about the name of the movie I don't have
   the slightest idea about it. It was still in the bag she gave it to me. I
really didn't give a fuck about it, I was kind of busy back then. Busy talking
                    to a honeyed annoying bee in Trollian.”
                                        
 He rolled his eyes and looked at him and kissed him sweetly.  “No, you're way
hotter and adorable. Let’s just say I’m the cuter one and by the way you're so
  red I bet I could even taste the cherry “ He leaned and licked his cheek a
  little ”Ehehe . Yep, just like cherry. “ he chuckled and playeds around by
hitting his arm back ”And by the way, I wonder what liltle bee you were talking
  to because I was so totally not on trollian. Pfft I’m never on trollian any
    more.“ He was just trying to play along so it wouldn’t go all awkward.
He simply used his psionics so that he wouldn't fall and he tries to pull back
  to get his tongue out so he starts to pout. He was blushing darker and was
   trying to pull off “Fine fine, you're hotter and cuter just let go of the
 tongue I need that shit to talk or do you want me to never talk again? I mean
 because I know for a fact that I want to talk and all and I think you'll miss
this tongue and what I can do with it” He winked, just messing around with him.
                                        
He frowned a little as an attempt to look more normal because of how much he’s
 flushing and lifted both of his middle fingers at him while letting go of his
 tongue  and crossed his arms. Kind of pouting, he mumbled  “Shut up! I don’t
know what you’re trying to imply and I am totally not going to bother in asking
           you but fucking hell that was low, even coming from you.“
                                        
 “Yeah, I know it was pretty low and all but still.“ he looked over to him and
    put his hands in his pants pocket since Karkat had his arms crossed. He
continued to walk and started to use his psionics and floats with them kind of
      lazy to walk. He looked around and sees that they're almost there .
                                        
 He rolled his. Sollux was pretty lucky after all and it was unfair. “Wait. Do
you know how to cook? Because I really don't have the slightest idea about how
  to. I mean, how to cook a worthy and kind of special food for this. I don't
think sandwiches are a good thing for the first date....” He was pretty nervous
since he wanted everything to go just perfect for Sollux but he can't *believe*
he didn't pay attention to that little detail ”Or should we just eat outside?”
                                        
 “Truth is I actually do know how to cook but I really don't like to. I Kanaya
once ate the food I cooked and she said she liked it...but it’s your choice. If
  you want to go out and eat or not, it’s up to you. But If I were to cook I
  would need to know what you want to eat. I can basically cook whatever. I’m
                               notthat useless.”
                                        
     He reached for Sollux's hand slowly and acting like if he wasn't doing
anything as he talks ” Oh la la. Now I’m curious to taste your food. Seriously
  Sollux I’ve known you practically since we're grubs and it wasn't but just
today I found out you're a good artist *and* chef. I’m starting to feel like I
 was the worst best friend that ever existed. And I really don't care what we
  eat, you can choose whatever you want, it is also going to go through your
 protein chute anyways. “ Finally, he grabbed his hand and held it once again,
 just like before but still acting all casual, or at least trying harder than
                   before. ”I will try to help you though.”
                                        
 “Yeah, alright then.  But you really don't have to help if you don't want to.
  It’s pretty easy to cook...and you didn't know all of this because you were
always busy and I didn't really want to disturb you. Besides, when we talked it
 was always some type of embarassing argument I don’t really even want to talk
 about  but damn. I do not remember your hive being so far away “ He chuckled
       and kissed Karkat’s hand ”But I don't mind because I’m with you.”
                                        
He blushed once again ”Y-yeah sorry about that....” He let out a small sigh. ”
  The worst part of it all is that when I finally got to take care of all the
shit I had to take care of you were already busy with your codes or with Aradia
or Feferi... But yeah it's kind of weird really, my hive wasn't that away from
y- “ Looking around a couple of times, he facepalmed. ”Please don't tell me we
           already passed by my hive and we didn't even realize it.”
                                        
He looked around and faceplamed as well. ”Fuck. I think we did...welp there is
 only one way we can get to your hive in a fast matter “ He grabbed Karkat by
  his hips and looked down at him ” Okay, so you’re going to have to hold on
tight. I’m going to use my psionics to get us to your hive... I don't want you
 to freeze or anything beause I am sure as hell if we walk back you willl get
colder and I’ll probably have to deal with your sick ass.“ He looked at him and
  smiled softly ”Or we can always walk I don't mind at all. I’m just worried
                                  about you.”
                                        
  He obviously would take any chances to be closer to Sollux and this time it
     was no exception “Oh no, please take me mr. Troll superman~ “He said
sarcastically and still fucking around as he wraps his arms around the other's
 neck, holding onto him in a firm grip but not enough like to squeeze the shit
                    out of him and probably break his neck.
                                        
 He let out a small laugh. ”God dammit kk “he then used his psionics to go up
and starts to go back towards Karkat’s hive, this time making sure he lands in
  the right place at the right time. Once there, he doesn’t really let go of
Karkat ”Welp, it looks like we are here..your hero has saved the fucking day “
     He chuckled and gave him a small kiss ”Any way we should get inside.”
                                        
He lets out a very quiet yet unique giggle before kissing his nose and letting
  go of him, turning to face the door and walk inside, not really letting his
hand go “What the-“ He noticed that the door was already open…Please don’t tell
             him someone bursted in his hive while they were gone.
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